Eid Al-Fitr

Eid Al-Fitr marks the end of Ramadan. What a long thirty days it has been for me (I know it has been the same for Zainab also, but I don't want to speak for the both of us). Just a few days ago I wrote about not feeling as if this fasting period has done what I needed it to. Until Karma reminded me that what I'm aiming for is making it to a point where my good days, my progressive days outnumber my unmotivated, emotional abyss days. Now, I am hopeful and embarking on leading a healthier life. Will I be hopeful tomorrow? Consistency in emotions is what I pray for. I pray for the same thing everyday: focus, strength, guidance and my family's health.

I am keeping my entry short today because I want to enjoy the holiday. Rather than over analyze and submerge myself completely in self-reflection, I am going to enjoy the steps I have made in such little time and appreciate my reconciliation with God. I have been holding His hand tightly ever since we reunited. So today I wipe off my sweaty hands. This will allow me to keep my grip tight as I continue my fast.

Eid Al-Fitr